Adele Speaks Honestly About Her Postnatal Depression After Having Son Angelo

Gracing the cover of Vanity Fair's December 2016 issue, Adele reveals that she suffered a “really bad” bout of depression after giving birth to her son, Angelo.

The singer was asked if she wants to give her four-year-old a younger sibling to boyfriend Simon Konecki, but Adele admits she’s “too scared” after experiencing postpartum depression.

“I had really bad postpartum depression after I had my son, and it frightened me,” she said, revealing she also didn’t take any medication for her condition. “I didn’t talk to anyone about it. I was very reluctant … My boyfriend said I should talk to other women who were pregnant, and I said, ‘Fuck that, I ain’t hanging around with a f*ckin’ bunch of mothers.’ Then, without realizing it, I was gravitating towards pregnant women and other women with children, because I found they’re a bit more patient.”

“My friends who didn’t have kids would get annoyed with me...whereas I knew I could just sit there and chat absolute mush with my friends who had children, and we wouldn’t judge each other. One day I said to a friend, ‘I fuckin’ hate this,’ and she just burst into tears and said, ‘I f*ckin’ hate this, too.’ And it was done. It lifted.”

“My knowledge of postpartum—or post-natal, as we call it in England—is that you don’t want to be with your child; you’re worried you might hurt your child; you’re worried you weren’t doing a good job. But I was obsessed with my child. I felt very inadequate; I felt like I’d made the worst decision of my life...It can come in many different forms … Four of my friends felt the same way I did, and everyone was too embarrassed to talk about it; they thought everyone would think they were a bad mom, and it’s not the case.”

Read the full interview at Vanity Fair.